As I lay on my bed,
My room silent and dusky,
The weather so chilly
There’s absolute stillness
As I hear the tick-tick of the clock…
I fear such nights,
When I’m isolated in my own room
I ponder over how my day went...
Suddenly I’m filled with a void,
Profound in my heart
I think of how I am lagging behind
My peers all ahead of me,
I fear how I procrastinate,
Hours passing by in a blink of an eye
As I try to close my eyes,
I fear my uncertainty,
I fear my choices,
I fear if I will be able to execute,
My plans for tomorrow
My heart is filled with regrets
Suddenly a drop of tear,
Rolls over my cheeks,
As I recall the past…
How awesome were those days?
When I used to express,
Even the tiniest of my fears,
To my PARENTS…!
I miss those days,
When words were not exchanged,
Still mom would exactly know
What’s been upsetting me...!
When my eyes could,
Communicate with my dad
And he could sense my emotions…
How he would just sit close to me,
Hug me and say nothing…
I feel like going to my parent’s room,
Utter nothing and simply make space,
For myself between them
Just like I used to...
I wonder how fast things alter,
Habits, preferences transform...
I was a toddler few years ago,
Now I’ve turned into an adolescent
I experience a different kind of change,
In my relationships with people,
Suddenly, I’m left stranded,
To pick up from where I left
I realise I alone have to fight,
All my battles
I am no more a tot,
Hinged on people…
I feel a knot in my stomach
I have to prevail over my breakdowns,
I swear to wear my heart,
On my sleeves…
At this midnight hour,
My parents assuming I’m fast asleep
No one beside me to consolidate,
Eventually I cry myself to sleep…
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